Wow. This is it, then. Leaving England in only a few hours.
I still remember the day I got the email about this opportunity. I remember where I was and my exact reaction – excitement at the prospect but then reality sunk in: it almost seemed too good to be true; there were too many things standing in the way; there was no way a girl like me would ever do something like this; money?; too far-fetched of a dream.
And now here I am, my voice which was once so comfortable here now a mere echo bouncing off the walls of an empty, void-of-previous-life bedroom. My life packed away in suitcases. And the memories of this place packed away in my mind.
I really don’t have any words with which to describe this year besides “thank you, God.” I am blessed beyond anything I could have ever imagined. This year has changed me in ways I never expected and all I can say is “thank you, God.”
Thank you for protection & safety. Amazing & new life-long friendships. Conversations. Spiritual growth. Companionship. International experiences. Traveling. Learning to survive on my own. Realizing the significance of my family & friends back home. Independence. Provision. Exposition to & appreciation of different cultures. Changing previous closed-mindsets into open-mindedness. Education. A job. Financial stability. People.
If there is one thing I’ve learned this year, it’s that people are what make life worth living. The world is incredible & fantastic & inexplicably beautiful. But without people there to share your life with, your experiences with, it can’t be as appreciated.
I love this city and I love this country and as much as I’ve grown attached to it, I don’t think at this point in time I’d be able to live here. Because my family is at home. My closest friends are at home. And frankly I can’t live without them.
Thank you, Jesus. Thank you, thank you, thank you. This year is forever etched in my mind and I am just so grateful. Now to go back home and be smothered with love from fam & friends – I’m blessed. So thankful for my life.
Peace out, England. I’ll miss EVERYTHING about you but your weather (yes, it was really that bad. It’s June and I literally have the heat on in my room right now). I know I’ll be back :).